Were my life a TV show, with seperate arcs representing my daily 'trials', I feel that this blog is what the narrator would have to offer the audience at the beginning and end of the episodes. And, as my life is, I feel as though another arc may be wrapping up.
I feel I've learnt a lot from this chapter. I've learnt to work for the things I want, the people I want to be around me. But, at the same time, I now know that I have to learn to cut these things, and not get invested in a lost cause. And, perhaps the most important thing, no matter how impressive someone seems, there will always be someone similar, someone slightly different yet the same in everything you want.
There's part of me that wants to scrap this, not close this chapter so early on. There's something about this girl that's different, unique, something I want to work even harder to pursue, even I though I'm so aware that it'll end in depression and my usual form of seeing everything as tragedy. But, at the same time, that logical side knows it's best to put it to bed, focus on the upcoming weeks that will determine my next few years.
So maybe it's best to say that it's not abandoned, but put on hiatus. But then again, hiatus is just a way of easing the concept to those who aren't ready to hear that it's over. If it's good enough for Godspeed You! Black Emperor, it's good enough for me.